Going through my notes on my notebook, I found this entry from one of the times I was in London.
It’s interesting how we repeat ourselves. We live our lives in cycles. We forget what we were thinking, what we were filling, what mattered to us only a few months ago. And then, when we go through the same thing again, it feels like it’s the first time. Like life has never been this hard or the difficulties we’re facing are new.
That’s why writing and revisiting what we wrote is such a cool, eye-opening exercise. I don’t know about you, but I love reading what I wrote before. It’s like reading a letter from a dear, old friend.
And I keep wishing I could tell myself that everything would be alright. Things always do. Even if I’m still facing a thousand and one issues, the things that used to worry me so much back then seem like such a tiny problem. That makes you realize that the monster you’re facing now, that seem so huge and diabolic and unbeatable… in a matter of a few years or even months will be only a fraction of a memory.
The main reason I write is to take things out of my head and onto a canvas where I can make more sense of all the feelings and thoughts. My words are the things that make me who I am. They are the thoughts that push me forward and that hold me back. They are the closest thing to a snapshot of what makes me, me. Going back and revisiting my words from the past are such an amazing way of seeing how I changed, evolved, grew. It would be a pity to have all of this information stored but never examined. That’s basically what I’ve been doing so far.
Now, I decided I’ll start revisiting these old notes and making a summary of them. I don’t want to keep pile stocking all my old notebooks, but I also don’t want to lose those insights. So a summary seems like a handy way to deal with it.
My goal is to go through my notebook and lost notes on my phone twice a year. This way I can remember things I planned, evaluate if my priorities changed, double-down on things that matter the most and get that refreshing dose of “Wow, that problem wasn’t really much of a problem, looking back”.
Do you like journaling or just putting your thoughts into words somehow? If so, what do you do with what you write?